It’s a quarter past two in the afternoon. Rescue workers are still searching the ground in Sichuan, China after that devastating earthquake. Apart from some very different new — and positive — attitudes, the Chinese government has been very forthright in accepting aid from the international community.
Can’t say the same down South. Burma is suffering even more from the aftermath of Cyclone Nargis. No thanks to the generals of course. It just sicken when you see those generals shamelessly use the aid relief effort — or whatever little they permit — as some PR stunt.
It’s really frustrating. I gave $10 in donations to the relief efforts in Burma, but I really wished I hadn’t been so generously on onset. The very idea that those military nuts could be pocketing the money, is just unbearable. It might just turn me in to a total cynic, devoid of compassion and flushing with antipathy.

It might sound dramatic — a flair I profess to have on mad occasions, — but it really can turn someone completely off helping the needy.
I can’t give aid to needy poor countries without my inner bitch castigating me for giving money to authoritarian regimes that are oh-so-typical in poor nations, unfortunately of course.
And my inner green bitch laughs off my attempts to recycle or help the environment in any way, citing the seemingly futile work of one person.
My inner greenback bitch works overtime to prevent me from saving, drudging up past records of my careless control over my finances.
Did I mention my inner sloth bitch? Yes, this the one that records my attempts at hard work, and then share it with the other inner bitches in me. That same one who considers any form of work, a waste of time given the welfare-esque allowance I get which hangs on me just serving my MMC.

So it’s a struggle. Of course, at times I agree with those bitches. But on other occasions, I show I’m a bigger human being than they are.
My plans for my new phone has gone down the crapper. Mostly no thanks to my inner kanna, which keeps me principle-ly moral.
Which is strange, given her pale lit face which just summons everything to it. just that I allow merely the bad things get past. It’s bizarre, I know, but seriously, it helps.

So now, I have to wait till much later to get a new phone. It’s really a new contemplation to really consider all the things in my life. Thinking long-term has never been so taxing.
(On another completely irrelevant note, maybe I’ll catch a movie next weekend. SATC isn’t out till my birthday + one day. So that gotta wait. Maybe I’ll take a day leave on my birthday. Provided I don’t have to do any guard duty on that day. Actually given that rather large pool of people, and the scarcity of duty days, I think economics may have just slimmed my chances of having to do guard duty. And it’s so bizarre to have to do guard duty when I’m excused from firearms. A stupid baton and a plastic-ish shield is all that I’m going to have with me. But unless an aggressor tries to break into the camp site, I think it’s not going to matter given that I probably don’t have to do anything.)

At this point it’s actually about 10 minutes to three. Probably later when the weather isn’t trying to kill me, I’ll skip down to the town center to pick up some light food to bring to work tomorrow. I think I’ll bring down drinks from home to work, so to avoid having to spend anything at all.
I’m seriously broke right now. Apart from having to maintain a deposit account which I have foolishly signed on for (on the bright side, at least it will force me to save) and have no idea when exactly I can withdraw all of it, now I must contend with having to work on wages that shouldn’t exist in a developed nation like ours.

(And to digress, as I always do on weekends, I wonder how to differentiate using terms like “countries” and “nation-states” and “nations” or even “states”. It’s a huge blur. I had a question sent back because the good folks at a political science department of a university-that-I-won’t-mention told me to rephrase the question better. Of course I couldn’t care less. Actually I did care — more.)

Three o’clock and I have got no friends, I wail.

Oh good. A news update.

Brown is pushing for human-animal embryo bill. The debate, expected to last several days, will raise ethical issues as well. Well, like duh. | South Africans show true hospitality by viciously attacking Zimbabwean refugees. Why not, violence on both side of the Limpopo river? I’m sure Robert Mugabe will thank G-d for that. Maybe he might even wish Morgan Tsvangirai might be among those affected. | Proving that he’s good at incurring wraths of political leaders by committing as many political gaffes as possible within the months he has left, President Bush’ speech at the Israeli Knesset, where he licked the feet of the policymakers, has left the Palestinian president feeling slighted. Following so far? Citing an ‘Israel bias’ the PA leader lamented the seeming omission of Palestine in the KS. | Microsoft considers yet another attempt at mounting Yahoo! It’s actually spelt with the ‘!’. | A senior FARC commander has surrendered himself herself. Amazing, I know. I knew you would be interested with reports about the Revolutionary Armed Forces of Colombia – People’s Army; or better known as Fuerzas Armadas Revolucionarias de Colombia – Ejército del Pueblo. I know, such a snappy title. | The UK has outdid herself in infuriating more Green people. | A gunman in Calemba, the Philippines, have killed 9 people in what it seem to be a family feud. Among the victims include 5 children. More on this developing story later.

I really applaud the efforts of open-source programmers and developers who have done so much in creating softwares and programs that have been made freely available and of so much benefit to all who use them.

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